I was robbed of my teenagehood after my mom died

Dear Gaone Please keep my identity anonymous. I am the eldest child in my family, I have two younger siblings who are now in their mid twenties. My mom died just after I entered adolescence. Subsequent to her death, my father whom we stayed with turned into an alcoholic until he died two years later. As a result of my father’s alcoholism, I filled the leadership gap in our home by assuming the role of a parent to my littler siblings. To date they still treat me as if their mom and dad despite the minimal age gap between us. Some of my relatives sing sky high praises of me for having parented and continuing to parent my siblings. Nonetheless, I mostly feel depressed. I feel that I have been robbed of my teenage hood. Even in my adult life I find myself being the primary giver and caretaker in my relationships, never is the scale of reciprocity balanced in my life. Kindly advise.